Comebacks for Assvice from fertiles...

Inspired by Yellowgirl, some of these are hers, and I will post for your enjoyment!!

1. Assvice: You can have one of my kids, they are driving me crazy!(From someone who is also pg.

* Your two are already used--I want a new one. Can I have the baby when it's born? (yellowgirl)

* Let's go to a lawyer to draw up the papers--I want this done legally.(Yellowgirl)

* Well, I wouldn't think of ever asking you for one, but since you mention it, I accept. THANKS. Can I have the new one? (Yellowgirl).

* Sure, but don't come try and take them back next month!

* No thanks. I don't like those. Can you make me a new one?

* No thanks. Yours are already potty trained. I was looking forward to changing poopy diapers.

2. Assvice: You could always adopt.

* Adoption. Never considered it. Since you offered, why yes, I'd love to! (Yellowgirl)

* Adoption--great! Do you *just* have 10k I can borrow? (Yellowgirl)

* What?? And miss out on morning sickness and stretch marks! No Way!!

* No thanks. I was looking forward to giving myself shots during IVF.

* I want an excuse to eat for 2 for nine months.

* Adopt? And miss out the opportunity of cursing my husband during labor for knocking me up?

* Adoption? Sure, but there is a shortage of infants. Can you make me one and I will adopt it?

* Great idea!! Will you do the homestudy for me?

3. Assvice: Maybe it's not in the cards for you to have children.

* Oh, I better become a crack whore then, because it's sure in the cards for them to have kids.

* Maybe it wasn't in the cards for you but the stork delivered to the wrong house!

* Nah! The stork's just pissed off because my cat killed one of his bird cousins!


4. Assvice: If you just relax it will happen.


* Next time they are sick or in pain, tell them it will go away if they "just relax."

* When they are screaming of labor pains, tell them, "Just relax and the baby will pop out. The baby doesn't want to come out and hear all that screaming."

5. Assvice: Take a vacation and you will get pregnant.

* That's right, my sperm will be stronger/eggs will be better if they get to go to the beach.

* A vacation! My reproductive system has already been on vacation for (insert time you have been TTC).

* No thanks. I'd rather throw away $10,000 in another failed IVF cycle.

* I can't. My RE is taking a vacation with the money from my last IVF cycle.

* No thanks. I don't want to get pg by having sex! That's disgusting!!

* I can't. I just bought a new car for my RE's kid.

6. If you adopt, then you will get pregnant.

* But I only want one kid. If I got pg after, I would have to abort it.

* After spending 20,000 to 30,000 dollars in adoption fees, I won't be able to afford to get pregnant.

If you have heard any other assvice lines and/or have any other comeback remarks, please add them in the comments section.

I've never been pg,so I haven't miscarried (a blessing), but if you would like to share assvice received by those who've had that shitty experience and what you'd like to tell them in response to their shitty assvice. That's if you don't mind.
sharing.

Also, I'd like to hear from secondaries who got the following assvice, "At least you have one kid, you should be thankful."

Anyway, that's my treat to all my readers for listening to me bitch this week.

Happy New Year! Let's make a resolution(and keep it) to get pregnant this year!

Relieved

The Rita family found a house! It will not be available until February, but there gonna stay with us til next Thursday, then borrow someone's camper until they either get the house or a FEM@ trailer. I enjoyed their company much more now that they are "visitors."

Soyoung starts school next Wednesday, so by the time classes start loading work on her, the Rita family should be moved out. It looks like she will have the quiet she is going to need on Sunday.

We had a tragedy in our church yesterday. 4 people in one family were killed in a car wreck from Mississippi on their way home from Indiana! One was in our life teen program. I don't know them personally, but L does. Please pray for the family, the kids at their school, and the mom, the only surviving family member because she took a flight home. They hit a deer, spun out of control and were hit by an 18-wheeler. Please pray for peace to everyone involved and their loved ones.

We're going to my parents' tomorrow to do Christmas. Finally. I have a small teddy bear for Soyoung, but I'd still like to get her another small gift, but haven't had the time. I am just going to tell her we have friends visiting until the end of the week.

In two days, we will be responsible for a teenager! We have to set rules, curfews, chores. I don't know where to begin. I'm thinking of doing like my mom did. I just need to know where she is at all times and I will tell her when to come home. I never had a "curfew", but before I left to go out, my mom would tell me when to be home. You think that's a good way to handle it? Or should I put a set curfew? I want her to have fun, but I'm responsible for her safety.

I will have a hopefully humorous post coming up soon inspired by Yellowgirl from my online support group. If I don't have time at lunch, maybe on Monday or Tuesday.

Surviving

Wow, two posts in one day! What does that tell you about the kind of week I've been having, lol.

The living situation is stressing out L already. When he's upset, I'm upset, because I get to hear all about it.

I must be having a selfish streak, but it's hard to go to work to support another family while they get to sleep in. We wanted them to have somewhere to sleep until they found a place but they are not looking! When they are looking, it's too small, I don't like the landlord, I don't want to live on that street! The arrangement can be tolerated for a week or two, but after that, I fear friendships may be lost.

I want to help out, but not be taken advantage of.

I am VERY afraid that the longer they stay, L may change his mind about wanting children! I just couldn't handle that.

I'm gonna give it til the end of next week. Please pray for me. Pray that I can remain patient, but help them to help themselves.

They're nice people. I could see becoming good friends, but I'm afraid I may lose that.

Please pray our agency doesn't find out and place Soyoung with another family.

Thanks, I promise try and write something happier tomorrow.

Jealousy

Ok, I admit.

I'm jealous.

Jealous of the fact that they have two beautiful children.

Jealous of the fact that they are being blessed with another in June, my birthday (Happy Birthday to me right?)

Jealous of the fact that she got pregnant on an IUD, when I can't get pregnant at all.

Sleep was better last night. The house settled down at around 10:30-11:00. They spent the day doing nothing again but finally looked at a couple places after L put a fire you know where....

I don't mind helping people, but there's a point they have to help themselves right? If there are no apartments, fine. But if you watch TV all day while we go to work, how do you find a place to live?

I am also afraid.

Afraid that I'll never experience the joy of pregnancy.

Afraid that the agency will place Soyoung with another family when they find out we have 7 people living in our small house (although she will have her own room).

Afraid that we won't have the first week of her visit to bond with her alone.

Afraid that after the Rita family leaves there will be no other children living in my home (at least while we own it).

Mostly, I'm afraid that L will get tired of my whining for children.

Also afraid that L will change his mind about children because of the wild ones living with us.

Jealousy, I know it's childish, but I long for what they have.

They do not have a "home", but they have children.

They are not working, but they have someone to call them Mommy and Daddy.

They don't know what to do next, but they know they have babies depending on them.

I'd give up everything I had just to be called Mommy.

New Visitor for the New Year!

Our exchange student will be arriving on Sunday. Yeah! I am excited and nervous.

How will she react when she finds out another whole family is staying with us? We were thinking since they were only staying a couple weeks, we would tell her friends were visiting?

I know I sound selfish, but it's getting hard on me already, so let me vent. I mean no disrespect for the Rita family, but I'm gonna bitch anyway, since I was up past midnight and they were just starting to get their kids settled for bed!!

A couple positive points first. I walk into my house and supper is cooked! Also, I have 2 happy kids playing in my living room. They let Abbey out a lot so she is getting used to going outside.

Here's the problem. I have to have my sleep. L and I like to be in bed around 9:30 to 10:00. I tell the Rita family goodnight around 10 and they have not even started gettting their kids ready for bed. Abbey has to stay in a kennel in the front room, since both rooms are now occupied. Well, Abbey was crying and barking because she was in her kennel and their was so much activity going on. Finally, I get up and tell them that the puppy will go to sleep once they turn the TV off in the living room. They got the hint and went to their room. I think the noise finally stopped at about 12:30 to 1am!

They haven't started looking for places to rent yet. I don't mind them staying, but they need to look. This living situation is not going to last past a week or two without serious tension. He is on worker's comp and the wife don't work, so why did they not apartment shop yesterday (supposedly, FEM@ can offer rent payments for a while when they find something)? We came to the rescue. L and I found some places, they can pick one.

I hope that they find a place soon so it doesn't end with any hard feelings.

I need sleep REALLY REALLY bad!!!

Going nuts with lack of sleep!!

By the way, I am aware that I will lose sleep as a parent, but not, I AM NOT a parent!!

Please don't wish me to go straight to hell!! I need strength, patience, and sleep right now!!!

Holiday Check Up

I know a lot of you readers are desperately hoping/praying for children. How are the holidays going for you? I hope they are not too bad.

Stupid me decided to watch Babies: Special Delivery on discovery channel. Dumb huh. Almost went into tears.

Other than that I'm doing ok. Sad, but ok. Only because my mind is preoccupied. I hope everyone survives ok.

Have a Merry Christmas everyone!

New Year's Visitor

I got an email from So Young's father tonight! For now, it seems like she will be arriving New Year's Eve or New Year's Day! That's in just over a week! I have to get my house and her room ready. The agency says we should bring a gift at the airport to help her feel welcome. Any ideas? I would also like to leave something wrapped in her room. What do you think? I am really excited! I will update more when I get more information.

Clarification my beliefs

I'm sorry everyone. I didn't mean to mislead you. The Catholic church does not approve of IUI or IVF, but I do. I'm not sure about IVF, and if I did it, I would have to be sure there were no discarded embryos because I believe life begins at this stage. I am not a perfect Catholic and I will have to answer for my choices if I am wrong, but I have an illness (endometriosis and infertility) and I intend to seek treatment, just as I would if I had cancer. I still believe that God has the ultimate power to create life. I don't want to start a debate about what the church believes because I already know. I just wanted to clarify, that I have done 3 IUIs and will probably still seek out other infertility treatments. That's just what I feel is right for me, even though it may be a weakness in my faith.

Anyway, I just wanted to clear that up.

No Baby Yet

As you all probably figured out, the fairy tale scenerio did not work out. Am I suprised? No. Disappointed? Of course. It's kinda like playing the lottery. You know you are not going to win, but it doesn't stop the disappointment of what "could have been" if you had the winning numbers.

The good news: L is now going to give consideration to the adoption route, which he previously would not consider, due to the red tape and privacy invasion thing. After L talked to his friend, he told L that it was a great experience and state really is trying to look out for the best interest of the children in their care.

Fostering/Adoption may be the best route for us later when you compare the expenses of other family building options:

1. Adoption--I've heard estimates between 15,000-30,000 dollars.
2. IUI-- $1000 to 2500 per cycle, no guarantees
3. IVF --10,000 to 15,000 per cycle
4. Option #2 and 3 are not acceptable in the Catholic church.
5. Adopt child from the state --$0 the state covers all adoption expenses if your foster child becomes available for adoption and you want to adopt.

Why go just one route to family building, when you can take several? As of now, I think are going to try a combination of all of the above.

L wants to get certified to become a foster parent. I sure won't mind filling my empty house!

Thanks for the kind advice, everyone.

Blessing Maybe

Ok, let's try not to get too excited, but maybe, and I mean maybe, there's a chance of us getting to foster and very likely adopting a 3 week old baby boy!

A friend of L's is in the process of adopting a foster child and received a call a few days ago asking if they wanted an infant. He informed them that it was too much for him, but knew someone (us) who would be willing. The social worker told him that there is a VERY GOOD chance that the baby will NOT be re-united with his mom due to some serious issues. Anyway, if we can get temporarily cerified in time, a big IF, we will get to foster a baby boy and have the option to adopt him, unless his mom makes a huge life change (which they feel is VERY unlikely).

It's a risk, I know. I do feel that the odds are in our favor, if we are approved. The red tape is not as bad as I first thought, and there are no adoption fees if we get to adopt the baby. The state covers EVERYTHING. I don't think I could do it if they told me it would probably get to go back with it's mom, but since that is unlikely, I guess I'll just roll the dice.

I'm trying not to get excited, but I have a good gut feeling about this. What do ya'll think? I know it's ultimately our decision but we would greatly appreciate any advice or good/bad experiences you had with adopting or fostering.


We haven't planned on adoption at this stage, but I didn't expect to be this close to maybe having a newborn.

I will not get excited yet.

Please, I need mega prayers(sorry I'm being selfish about prayer requests today).

I will keep you posted as I learn more. Wish us luck!

Please Send Prayers

During my colonoscopy, my doctor removed a very tiny polyp, maybe only 2-3mm. It was removed, so that one won't give me anymore problems. I just ask for prayers that it comes back from the lab non-cancerous. If it does, then I won't have to be checked again for five years (and I REALLY don't want to have this done every year).

Since it was removed, I shouldn't need to do anything else, I'm just praying it's not pre cancer or anything so I won't have to go through that awful test every year.

Ok, it wasn't too bad I guess. The worst part was the liquid diet(starving the day before), and drinking this nasty stuff to clean you out. They were supposed to give me good drugs during the procedure but they didn't give me enough, and some of it was painful, but not unbearable. I think they gave me different meds than others because I told them I get nauseated. The pain I felt was better than throwing up though I guess.

I'm glad that is over with. I was out by 8am so now I get the rest of the day off due to the drugs they gave me!

Tagged

I've been tagged by Lori at Adventures in Baby Making. I feel so popular now! I'm not too interesting either though. Here goes:

7 Things I'd like to do before I die:

1. Go to Hawaii, Austrialia and the rest of the carribean
2. Win the lottery
3. Go to law school
4. Run for office
5. Become a teacher
6. Have Children!!!!
7. Make in difference in others' lives

7 things I can't do:

1. Walk and chew gum at the same time (just kidding).
2. Eat any cooked vegetables
3. Play sports (I don't have the coordination)
4. Have children the old fashioned way
5. Stop obsessing about getting pregnant
6. Get pregnant
7. Have a baby

7 things that attracted me to my spouse

1. We have a good friendship/partnership
2. He makes me laugh
3. He needs me and makes me feel wanted
4. He takes good care of me.
5. I just love him
6. He is a good hearted person
7. As Dr. Laura would say, "he would swim through shark infested waters to bring me a glass of lemonade." (and I'd do the same for him).


7 things I say most often

1. Baby, I need sleep. (to my husband when he won't turn the TV off so I can go to bed)
2. The "F" word, I'm trying to stop.
3. I want a baby.
4. I'm tired
5. I want a baby
6. Stop being such a neat freak (to my husband).
7. Go get my cat.

7 books or series I like:

1. The Left behind Series
2. Silent Treatment
3. When the Wind Blows
4. Crime novels
5. Romance novels
6. The Vampire Chronicles
7. Anything other than a textbook

7 Movies I watch over and over again:

1. Titanic
2. Dirty Dancing
3. Grease
4. Disney Cartoons
5. The Prince & Me
6. West Side Story
7. The Phantom of the Opera

7 people I'm curious about and would like to join (if you want to, no pressure):

1. Monique (Nique's World)
2. Jeanne ( Animal Lover)
3. Chris (Barefoot and)
4. Arwen
5. Yellowgirl (in my comments section if you have time)
6. Anyone else reading who has time or wants to comment

I'll completely understand if you don't want to participate. I'm usually pretty lazy about doing things like this myself.

I have a question though. How do I put a link on my post and make a name appear as a link, rather than having it show the whole blog address?

Sorry I'm not more interesting.

Christmas Carol

Barefoot And. . . http://barefootand.blogspot.com wrote this awesome Christmas carol. Go check it out, it's very funny. I wish I were that creative! I can always count on her to give me a good laugh in the morning before work.

Nothing new going on hear, so I'm not gonna bore you too much. The interview went good, but L has to wait for an opening in the flight school which could be at least 6-8 months, but if he wants to pay his way to another flight school, he can get on sooner. I told him to wait and let them pay for it.

Enjoy Chris' Christmas carol as I start singing to myself, On the first day of Christmas. . .

Ok I won't spoil it for you.

Leaving, on a Jet Plane. . .

No. Not me! I wish I could get out of South Louisiana for a while.

L has his interview in Dallas with the airline (if you want to know which one, email me, but I'm not giving free advertisement, at least not if they don't hire him). Please send prayers for a safe trip and for him to get a job he will love. It sounds like they really want him though. The only thing that will take a while is that the flight school is booked up so he will have to wait for an opening, but I think the job will be his! Also, his dad has been bugging him so much about flying that he's almost thinking about giving it up (his dad has done that through his life). He is just trying to encourage him, but L does not like to be pushed or rushed into anything. Even when I want something done, I have to work on his time.

Work is busy today as the receptionist is again absent. I did manage to get out of answering phones because I'm working on financial statements. That's what accountants are supposed to do right?

Tomorrow evening, our caseworker is coming to fill out papers for So Young. Friday, my job is taking the ladies out to eat (and drink). Saturday, I must finish Christmas shopping and Sunday, I'm on liquid diet and get to drink some nasty stuff to prep for my colonoscopy. Fun weekend ahead huh? I know some of ya'll have had much worse, so I'm not gonna complain too much.

Oh yeah, tonight L is having a pizza party for his religious ed class. Hmm. Plane arrives in New Orleans around 5pm and his class starts at 7. Looks like I'm gonna have to come to the rescue until he gets back.

So Young

Sorry everyone, but I'm just so excited about So Young coming to stay! At least maybe ya'll will get a break from my moaning about infertility for a while. A new puppy and an exchange student! At least I won't get lonely!

As far as baby making goes, I am again feeling at peace (though not accepting it) about being temporarily childless. I also now feel at peace again with God. I took a big leap and finally went back to confession, and I really feel at peace again. I feel like a full Catholic again. It's good to be back to the church. I have some sad days, but God has been placing some delightful distractions in my life for which I am very greatful for. I think these distrations are helping me stay sane. I guess my prayers are being answered. I asked God to take away some of the pain, and these distractions are working so far.

Well, we're meeting with our caseworker Thursday night to fill out papers, and they can make sure our house is livable. L is worried about the animals making the house look messy and the kitty litter box. If you have a cat, wouldn't they expect to see a litter box? I explained to them as long as there wasn't cat piss and shit all over the floor, that shouldn't be a problem. The cat's gotta have a place to go right?

L showed me the website and we got to see a picture and profile of So Young. We also got to read her essay she wrote. Her English is very good. The only errors were grammatical. Sorry, I will not post a picture, because I had to sign in to a website to get it. I did send one to my parents and put one in my office. If she comes, and is a computer geek with her own website with pictures, I will put a link to it. The last few days, I've been consumed with getting ready for her arrival. Hopefully she will be here in less than a month. Please pray for her a safe journey.

More info on my guest map

Sorry everyone, but I'm really excited about this guest map thingie. To keep some of you from having to stick you pin in the water, you can click on zoom and it will zoom out and give you more room.

Thanks everyone for humoring me and participating. Ya'll are the best!

Korea update

Just a couple updates about our exchange student. She is almost 15, not 16, so hopefully she won't be dating yet, lol. I'll go ahead and give her real first name. I don't think it will compromise her identity, since I'm sure none of you know her. Her name is Soyoung (pronounced sue-young). She likes music and I think plays the piano. So I will finally get to live with another musician again! L is just not into some of the cultural stuff that I like.

Now they are checking my references (already called one of my friends) and Washington DC is doing a background check to make sure we're not criminals. As soon as her VISA gets cleared and background check is done, she'll be coming down to visit. We're also gonna her her email address soon. This is very exciting!

Guest Map

Hi.

I found this cool guest map thing from Tertia's blog (So Close, in my links).

Please put a pin to mark where your from. I'm not too good with computer stuff, so I'm really ecstatic that this thing actually works!

We gave our caseworker a definate "yes" about the exchange student, so we will be calling her in the next couple days to get things set up. I'm really getting excited!

Well, don't have time to write too much more today. Jack and Jill are coming over in an hour and we'll be babysitting and chasing them around. Have a good weekend. Thanks for the supportive comments about our houseguest.

16 is dating age right? I guess that means when guys come to take her out, L can be sitting at the door cleaning his guns! Who ever thought he'd get the opportunity to do that at 26?

Houseguest Coming Soon

No, I'm not pregnant.

Don't worry everyone, I did NOT take in another animal.

My in-laws are not moving in, neither or my parents, or any other family.

We are not adopting or taking in a foster child(not yet)

But....

We are taking in an exchange student from Korea!!

It's a girl. She is 16 and will be arriving in January and staying for a year. She will have her own money and all she needs is a place to stay. It's going to be an interesting change going from no children to being responsible for a teenager, but we definately have room for her! When L called the lady to set it up, I wasn't sure at first, but now I'm completely excited!

If there's ever a good time for this sort of experience, it is now. What better time than now to take in an exchange student? L and I have no other children or responsibilties, so she will be able to get on un-divided attention. Even if I get pregnant, it won't be until at least March and she will be gone or about to leave before I have a baby anyway. I just wish we could have her for Christmas, so I wouldn't be so lonely, but I guess it's better she spend it with her family.

So, what do ya'll think?

Remembering

I got this idea from Arwen's blog (see links). It sounds like fun, so I'm gonna try it too.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL MEMORY OF YOU AND ME.
It can be anything you want--good or bad--BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.
When you're finished, post this paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you

It Runs In the Family

My dad had colon cancer at 34.

My dad's brother had colon cancer.

My grandfather died of colon cancer (back when they didn't have as advanced treatment).

Doctor says I have to get screened 10 years before the age my dad had first round of colon cancer. At 26, I'm two years late, but finally quit procrasinating and scheduled a colonoscopy.

Fun.

I'm so thrilled.

Although only the men in my dad's side had colon cancer, I still must be checked because of genetics. My colonoscopy is scheduled Dec 19 (at least I won't have to re-pay my deductible).

I'm not too worried but please send prayers. If I'm clean, I won't have to go back for another 5 years, so pray they find absolutely nothing.

I figured I'd get it out the way while I wasn't trying to get pregnant the next couple months.

By the way, my dad and uncle are fine, and since my dad no longer has a colon, his cancer won't return there.

More on Dr. Quack

To answer the question I was asked on my last post. No. I will not go back and directly question Dr. Quack about why he waited so long to do the IUI. As much as I am EXTREMELY curious to hear his reasoning, I'm not about to pay him $200 on another consult just to rush through my question and not really listening. Dr. Quack is history. I broke up with him and I didn't even tell him. I mean, I told him I was taking a break from treatment and in six months, never heard a word, phone call, letter, nothing from the clinic checking on me at least. I mean, I paid him nearly $2500 out of MY pocket. He didn't even TRY to file anything with the insurance, even a pregnancy test one time he wouldn't file! For that kind of hard-earned money, they should have at least checked up on me, even if it was just a standard, mass letter to send to everyone! If that isn't bad enough, I now realize that I was probably not given competent medical treatment. Do ya'll think I'm entitled to a refund?

So it's goodbye to Dr. Quack and hello to Dr. New Orleans. I hope he has a better treatment plan for me. The good news. . . there is 6-7 RE's in his practice, so one of them has to be good right?

Duck gumbo anyone???

No Wonder I'm Not Pregnant!!

Ok, I'm somewhat furious about what I'm about to write. I don't think I was seeing a qualified RE, so appropriately, I will call him Dr. Quack, and will say he is from a major city in Louisiana, but not New Orleans.

I posted a question on an online infertility support group about the timing between the HCG trigger shot and the IUI. Dr. Quack would give me a trigger shot on day 14 around 7:30 am and not inseminate until day 16 around 8-10 am. That's approximately 50 or so hours after the trigger. I thought that seemed a little late, but Dr. Quack knows all right? Well, it turns out some of the ladies informed me that this the IUI is usually done around 36 hours after the trigger. Most of them have been through more in treatment, and if they say 36 hours, I believe this is accurate. That was also the time frame I was thinking it should have been done in. If I'm wrong, please correct me.

Anyway, generally people inseminate 36 hours after the trigger, Dr. Quack, 50-52 hours depending on how long the lab took to do the wash!! Am I the only one that thinks there is something wrong? I even asked him to inseminate the afernoon after the trigger shot and he said, "nope, it's too early." After doing an IUI, approximately 50 hours past the trigger shot, he makes the following suggestion, "Intercourse will be helpful tonight, the egg will still be alive." Is the egg really still alive approximately 60 hours after the trigger shot?

Please, please clarify this. I want to make sure Dr. New Orleans does it properly when I start seeing him. Thanks everyone.

Feeling Strange

Last night I went to a planning meeting at church, and I was seriously feeling like I was far off in la la land. I mean, so bad that I feel bad about not having any input last night. It was like I couldn't make myself concentrate. The youth pastor asked me if I could do something last night and I went, "huh", I had completely zoned out. It was the strangest thing. Does lupron make you looney or was I just suffering lack of sleep? I did crash when I finally got to bed last night.

I hope I don't act that stupid at work today.

Abbey is going on her puppy pad most of the time. I haven't got her going out too well, but at least she's going in the same spot and I can place to puppy pad there. Also, I'm kinda disappointed, she loves L much more. Oh well, I guess she will bond to me soon.