Monday, June 29, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
I went to visit tonight after work, bringing Smiley of course, so she could visit with him a little. Baby is precious. Yes, I have pictures, but can't post, but looks like your typical newborn baby boy. I got a good pic of bio mom with Smiley(he actually held still for the picture). I'll probably bring it by tomorrow, because I'm a sucker for babies, will have to visit again. Need to pick up small gift.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Here we go again.....
Judge supposedly said they could keep the new baby if they signed away rights to the other two. They said they'd only sign away rights to us. The judge said he respected that. I know...sounds fishy and I'm sure nothing will come of it but mom says be ready in case judge wants to see us in court to make sure we will take them.
I mean, I'd be overjoyed to have her back, but tired of this little hope then nothing. I'm gonna try not to think too much of it and put it in God's hands because only He knows what is best for everyone.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
A Visit From an Angel
What would you do if there was someone you loved more than life itself and, and one day you find out you will never be able to see them again?
How would you cope? Would you scream and holler? Be angry at God? Would you burst into tears until you run out of tears to cry?
Or maybe you would react like I did: become numb and convince yourself it didn't really happen. Did you know that some pains are so bad you go into shock and feel numb?
You go through the motions with some support at the funeral then your on your own. While you know you have to let go of that child, you still want to keep her alive in her memories, so you share with others how wonderful she was....
but they don't want to listen...they change the subject.
Well, I can never again see my Princess, except in my dreams. Last night I had the most beautiful dream about Princess.
In most of my dreams about Princess, I know she is dead, and I know I am dreaming. Last night was so real.
Hubby and I were at the doctor's office for the kids(not sure why). He stepped out of the room and when he came back he was carrying Princess and he placed her into my arms.
I burst into hysterical sobs of happiness. She smiled at me with a mouth full of teeth.
"I thought she died", I asked L.
Somehow in this dream, she somehow survived and was returned to us.
Next I remember bringing her to visit everyone at my dad's work with such joy of my little miracle.
I soon woke up, and was brought back to reality.
I kinda felt a glimpse of what our renuion might be like in heaven.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I have the rest of the week in some freedom, then back to the 8-5 routine.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Everyone has a photographic memory..
Neither did my camera for:
- J's last visit with his siblings(official visit, of course we will still keep in contact.
- My 30th B-day party yesterday(though I'm officially 30 tomorrow) which was a Tw*light theme (I felt like a kid again! It was great), so I can't show you any pictures of my cake. I really hope someone else took a picture of the cake.
Boy, do I feel stupid.
And to think I felt smart using the old fashioned film camera so I didn't get the blur of the kids moving that I get from my digital camera. I got sick of taking tons of pictures and most being blurred. I tested to see if there was film by taking a picture and watching the numbers advance. Apparantly, it does this without film and it's been so long since using a regular camera, I forgot.
I wish I could say that was the only time I "took pictures" without the film, but I would be lying. Guess the brain goes at 30(ok, you're right, I have these moments reguraly). At least I'm gonna turn 30. My dad was 29 for ten years.
Anyway,the party was great. It was supposed to be a surprise party, but I was suspecting something when my husband kept talking about ignoring all the cars in my mom's driveway because of a tupperware party, but I was excited because it meant I was going to see great friends and lots of family I haven't seen in a while. The turnout was great. Runergirl (Tipped Uterus) another blogger, and my roomate from college was there who I haven't seen in months. Lots of babies and toddlers to adore and give kisses to.
In other news, I had a job interview Thursday with a company that owns a lot of local franchises. It's a controller position, so not teacher related, but would be employment without taking work home. Also, my possible future boss is a CPA, so I would work there a year and I could finally get licensed. They will pay for my license, continuing education, pay me to go to CE,travel expenses for CE, and professional organization dues like A*CPA! The interview lasted over an hour with detailed info about the job. I should know something within a week.
I'm kinda excited, but a bit upset I'll be cheated out of my summer break I worked so hard for. At least we have a short vacation coming up next month.
Oh yeah, K's adoption will be finalized June 25!