16 week Ultrasound

Well, we saw the high risk doctor the first time yesterday and he told us that he will not let me go past 37 weeks. It looks like we are going to have Christmas babies!

Also, we found out the genders: we are having 2 boys! Poor Kyleigh is going to be outnumbered but she gets to keep her status as the only princess in the house.

Getting better

While last week was a bit rough with the headaches and exhaustion, I'm slowly starting to feel more human again. Over the initial shock(which is a blessing of course) of not only being pregnant again, but learning I was carrying twins has died down, the insomnia has decreased which has given me a couple nights of wonderful sleep.

Now that the surprise has passed, the reality is hitting us. There will be two newborns in this house late December/early January. It will definitely be an adjustment, and now we're trying to make a game plan for a toddler, 2 newborns, a special needs child and another 4 year old who will also need mommy and daddy's attention too. I have decided to admit: I'm going to need help, and that is ok.

I have begun the homework on researching/reading all I can on twin pregnancies and parenting twins and found some very common sense/helpful advice. I know we're going to do fine and I'm praying they will be good babies like Kyleigh.

Well, was planning to document a little more of the pregnancy process today but my baby is giggling at me and my 4 yr old wants a new movie in since it's raining and he's going stir crazy. Will try to come back soon.

Wiped

Apparantly, the second trimester energy burst doesn't come back with twins. Either that,or the exhaustion is still hanging around. The 3 little ones on the other hand, have unlimited amounts of energy, especially Nick, who will literally "hang from the ceiling fan" if I put him in his bed a couple minutes so I can do a few chores. The whole time I try not to resent the teenager sleeping all day and sitting on his ass in the front room the few hours he's not sleeping. Asking for help is from him is like asking for extra attitude, which I do not have the energy to deal with, so I try to stay out of his way. And then there's the days Kody likes to wind the little ones up even more before retreating the the quietness of his room!

Kyleigh's first birthday was Saturday at my mom's. She will be one tomorrow. I can't believe a year has gone by already. The party was really nice, but haven't had the energy to take the pictures off the camera yet, so hopefully can add pictures soon.

I know it should get better soon. Still so much nicer than the years before while we waited so long for our children. Please pray for some energy to come my way soon.

Teenage Troubles

I'm hormonal and have had to take way too much verbal abuse from my son today,and noone can do anything about his behavior, so please no bashing my thoughts as I have to get this out:

Let's just say, Kody's determined to be as defiant as possible, thinking in his little mind that he can get "kicked out" to go live with his mom. Thanks a lot, lady for contacting him behind my back at Youth Challenge Program, telling him you were ready to take care of him and making many other promises you know you damn well can't keep! That's ok, you and your children don't have to deal with the consequences of his his behavior as a result of your "promises" I am saddened that you are so insecure of yourself that you have to call my son, feed him a guilt trip so he will say, "I love you" and you will feel better about abandoning him into foster care. If you really cared about his future, you would encourage him to join the military where he will have a secure job and the structure he needs to function, rather than promising him "the world" if he moves back up there.

Crazy Dreams

Well, I'm 13 weeks today, one trimester down, two to go. The last few nights I've been dreaming that I'm having triplets and waking up terrified. I keep waking and telling myself,"it's just two, it's just two." It sounds funny saying that there's only two babies. I never in a millon years imagined I'd get pregnant, then get pregnant again, then find out I'm expecting twins.

As exciting as it is, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I'm not so worried about adjusting to life with 2 newborns, an 18 month old, a 5 yr. old that is still developmentally a baby and a 4 yr. old. I know it is going to be rough for a while but I'm praying they will be good babies like Kyleigh, and I can get them into a sleeping routine in a couple months.

I do worry a bit about the medical aspect of twins. Two babies automatically puts the pregnancy high risk and I try not to even think about how we'd survive if I were to be put on bedrest. I cannot work with Nick and Larry has to, so praying everything runs smoothly like with Kyleigh. I'm also terrified of the babies arriving suddenly and not having time to get to my hospital, which is two hours away. The local hospital here is not equipped to handle twins.

I still feel crazy saying the word "twins" referring to myself. Although, I did have that "gut feeling", I'm not sure what caused it. I think it started after my 8 week appointment and they hadn't done an ultrasound yet, so I didn't have that confirmation that there was one baby. At 9 1/2 weeks, I thought I was hearing 2 heartbeats, but was in the wrong location and was hearing my own post. At 10 1/2 weeks, I definitely picked up a baby's heartbeat. It wasn't until a week later I was consistently finding heartbeats in different locastions, even marking both spots so I could go back and forth with the doppler probe to verify. Still,as I went in for my 12 week appointment, I was sure my doctor would offer a logical explanation that didn't include twins. It just seemed so unlikely that it would actually happen to me so when the doctor offered the NT ultrasound, I accepted, so I could see my babies.

As soon as the tech put the wand to my belly I saw both babies, but was still in disbelief, waiting for her to say out loud, "there's two babies." That wasn't mentioned until she was focusing in on one baby and Larry said, "Well at least there's just one in there" and she replied, "actually, there's two." I thought he was going to pass out from shock. I'd been warning him that I thought I heard two heartbeats, but he apparantly thought I was wrong. Anyway, just sat and watched in happy disbelief as she finished.

As for the family announcement, I had fun with my mom and sister and sent them the u/s pic on their phones showing both babies, then a picture of each individual baby. It was fun watching them trying to figure it out then saying, "yes, there are two babies."

So far, I've been spared the morning sickness, but I am much more exhausteed and irritible, and other than sitting home and caring for my kids, I don't have to energy to go anywhere or do anything else. Next Saturday is Kyleigh's first birthday party, so I'm hoping for a burst of energy, at least for that day.

Well, gotta run for now. The kids are into everything. Will try to keep updated as much as possible.