Guilty

I've been feeling like there's not enough of me to go around this weekend.

I feel guilty about:

-Not being able to visit Princess this weekend. She just had surgery a few days ago and is all alone. I hope she knows we love her.

-feeling relieved that Princess was not released this weekend, because Smiley and L have been so needy of my care, I don' t think I could have been up all night with Princess' withdrawal screams too.

-Being too worried about Princess and Smiley to give L the cuddle time(although I've been caring for him like an infant, since he's been so weak) he needs feeling so bad.

-Not insisting on checking L into the hospital. He said he wants to give it til Monday to see if the antibiotics helped any.

-worrying about losing Princess to a relative before she is even brought into my care.

I need to see my little girl, but I would need a babysitter for L and Smiley. I've had to watch L very closely, since he's sometimes so weak he passes out. I know it's cause he needs his rest and is still trying to do too much, although I did not let him leave the house today. I know he really needs me now and it isn't the typical whiney sick husband thing.

I'm very worried with L being sick as the nearest decent hospital is about 45 minutes away and I pray that whatever was on the X-ray did not require immediate hospitalization.

Well, gotta go check on the hubby.