Baby/Adoption Shower

It's finally my turn. I was mentioning all the baby stuff I needed to my mom and she asked if I'd like a baby shower. I said yes, of course. She was gonna wait until the adoption was finalized, but I need baby stuff NOW. She's gonna call my aunts and grandmas and set it up for a couple of weeks! Here's the deal though: if I do a shower now, I won't have another if/when I get pregnant. I told her I'm fine with that. I may never get pregnant, but I will get another baby placement(possibly a newborn) sometime in the future. It's sad, but they have been pulling babies like crazy. They drug test the moms at the hospital and if they test positive, they place the baby into foster care.

Anyway, I think I'll probably cry at the shower, at the termination hearing(whichever decision is made), and the most at the adoption. The shower will be a good time for everyone to meet baby N and kiss on his fat little cheeks!

It's nice to get to have something so special, a baby shower, like normal fertile people get to have. Adoption really can help heal infertility. The pain is almost gone. Parenting is what is important to me. There's still gonna be the fear of losing him, but we have a very good chance of adopting him. His mom is going before the same judge with a 3rd child in the system, so he will not be happy to see her again.

Keep baby N in your prayers.