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Adopted 3 boys out of foster care, then got pregnant for my beautiful daughter, now currently pregnant again with twins.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I LOVE Bottle Feeding!!

I am absolutely adoring Bubbles, especially our feeding time. I love how she stares at me with those big blue eyes while she eats. Sometimes she stops drinking to smile or laugh at me. I melt. Of course, I'm a little irritated when she does it at the 3-4am feeding, but it does help me know it was worth me getting out of bed.

Bubbles is also a happy baby. I REALLY hope I do not jinx things writing what I'm about to write. She wakes up, she's happy. She comes home, she's happy. She gets in her swing, she's happy. You pick her up, she's so damn excited she squeals in laughter.

Bonding has definately happened. As I was writing last week about not feeling as head over hills as with Smiley and Princess, I imagined it wouldn't be long before that feeling changed. It wasn't. I'm hooked and she has me wrapped around her little finger.

It's been a week yesterday and my heart already breaks at the thought of her leaving. I know I'm supposed to be a good foster mom and be happy if she goes back to her family, but mom was given the choice to live in a group home and not have her baby taken.

I still don't know what will happen, but her loss will hit me hard. All these great things about her just makes me have a gut feeling I will lose her. I know she's not mine, but like I tell L, I am "mommy" to these babies until the judge says otherwise. She's a happy, healthy baby. They never sent us a healthy baby, so I wonder if that means we won't get to keep her.

Bubbles is an easy baby to care for. After Smiley and Princess, I feel like she is almost no work at all(I am sure jinxing myself to an up all nighter with Bubbles now). I love Smiley to death, but his neediness has made caring for a healthy baby so much more exciting and a blessing. I guess I never realized how much work Smiley was until now. It's so easy. I just give her a bottle, she drinks it, and she grows!

I'm still having feeding issues with Smiley. I tried putting an avacado in the food processor. It came out looking like chopped onions, so he didn't go for that. He wouldn't touch the refried beans either, although I could probably put them in his feeding tube.

His doctor is sending him to a stomach doctor to have him examined before we get into allergy testing. I tried getting his ENT to do allergy testing, but they don't test children under 5. They referred me to an allergist, but they don't take medicaid. I asked for prices to self pay(and expense it) but the nurse wasn't even sure if the doctor would allergy test him if the only symptom he had was vomiting. What does it matter? I'm gonna pay him! I want him tested!

Oh well, I covered my ass bringing it up to his pediatrician. Next time they bitch about him dropping weight, they better not blame me!


  • At 1:52 PM, Anonymous Anna in IL said…

    You don't have to put the avocado in the food processor! A ripe avocado is so soft that you can just scoop spoonfuls of it out for Smiley. (Hint: they are ripe when you can make a dent on the outside with your thumb, and it doesn't spring back.)

    I'm sorry that they won't do the allergy testing. How aggravating!

  • At 2:25 PM, Blogger Dream Mommy said…

    This one apparantly wasn't ripe then. Maybe I'll try again later.

  • At 4:59 PM, Blogger Awesome Mom said…

    It sure is amazing isn't it? After having to deal with a very hellish first year with Evan, Harry's first year was a dream. It has been amazing just watching him grow like he is supposed to.

  • At 7:50 PM, Blogger Robin said…

    You crack me up with the whole avacado thing!!!! It's good to bring him to the GI, he will either suggest the allergy testing or will know if there is some sort of problem with his feeding tube.

  • At 7:58 PM, Blogger JUST A MOM said…

    I am going to tell you this,,,,, I AM SOOO HAPPY YOU HAVE GOTTEN THE CHANCE TO LOVE A NON MEDICAL NEEDY CHILD!!! Now my dear, You are feelign the feelign I felt with 35 plus babies that came into my home. I was their mommy no matter how long they were there or how soon they woudl leave. They need yoru love and I will tell you I have had proof they remember it.

    Tell ya about that one another time. LOVE THAT BABY AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. God sees your heart.

    Hope Smiley gets a chance to see a good doctor.

  • At 7:59 PM, Blogger Just another Jenny said…

    It's amazing how going through tough times can make you appreciate the good times even more. If you hadn't dealt with so many feeding issue's you wouldn't be able to enjoy these easy feedings as much as you are. I am sure bubbles is adorable.


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