Still Adjusting to the Shock

I haven't abandoned ya'll. I'm just still mourning and hurting over the decision for baby D. I kinda had my hopes up and now devastated for baby D, but I know there is nothing I can do but pray. I feel so helpless. I feel kinda like a mom just being told her baby would not live long, even though he is not my baby, although not to the same extent obviously. I'm sure his bio mom will be much more devasted and I pray for her, that she turns herself in and tries to be with her lil' one, even if in foster care.

I'll return when I get out of this slump and feel like writing again.