Still Broken

Saw my doctor and the verdict was higher dose BCP. He asked if we've done a fertility workup and I was like, been there, done that, had eough. Then we discussed continuous BCP and I jumped at the option. I mean, if I can't get pregnant, why bother having periods. I really do like this local doctor. I had another huge cyst on my left ovary and I hope it doesn't burst.

I told my doctor we are in the process of adopting a 20 mo old boy, have a 9 mo girl is foster care and her mom is expecting a boy, so we will potentially adopt 1-3 kids and told him that was enough.

He was doing so well until he said, "some people adopt a few and end up pregnant later." Even some of the doctors don't get it, but he saved himself by saying " I'm sorry you are going through this." I almost told him I was sorry anymore because of all the babies I've got to parent.

We are adopting Smiley! We are going to have a son, our legal son. We actually have an adoption worker who is coming for a home visit next week and giving him all he's legally entitled to: the medical card, 80% of the board payment and will reimburse medical expenses not covered by the card. Also, found out the state pays for our adoption attorney! So total adoption fees will just be our personal attorney reviewin the adoption contract before we sign.

I can't wait until this is over and I can introduce you to my son, by his new adoptive name. We are only changing his middle and last name, because we like his first name.